HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!

Have a safe and fun Halloween!
** good news to lighten the bad day **
My cousin Nicki & her fiance Jeff have set a date to get hitched & if all goes as planned, Jarrod & I are going to road trip out there to watch her say "I do!"
Lets see, things have been getting better on the homefront, but I do feel like as soon as things get to point where I am really happy, something happens that drags me down again. I know that I want to be with him, there is no doubt in my mind... I have never doubted it. I just dont know what I need to do different to make it work, to make him happy & me. I am trying though.
We are gearing up for Halloween around our house, Jarrod is going as Lt. Dangle from Reno 911 and is going to look awesome, he is going to such lengths as to dye his hair, shave his legs and he is going to sport a fake 'stache. I am going with Vicki as a flapper from the Roaring 20's, Vicki has this great silver dress and we are going to curl her hair all up, and put a scarf in her hair. I am wearing just a plan black fringe dress but I am excited to sport a fun blonde wing for the night! These are the first "sneak peak" photos of halloween... and Vicki & Jose (aka me having fun with Jarrod's 'stache.



"Falling in love is like falling off a cliff, you can't do anything about it so you might as well try and fly!"
We owe great thanks to Jen & Adam for taking Ernie for the weekend, it was nice to be able to give all our attention to Rokit! And they must have really worn him out because he spent all Sunday sleeping outside, AMAZING!

Theres a shadow just behind me.shrouding every step I take.Making every promise empty. pointing every finger at me.Waiting like a stalking butler, who upon the finger rests.Murder now the path of must we, just because the son has come.Jesus, wont you fucking whistle.something but the past and done.Why cant we not be sober?I just want to start this over.Why cant we drink forever?I just want to start this over.I am just a worthless liar.I am just an imbecile.I will only complicate you.trust in me and fall as well.I will find a center in you.I will chew it up and leave.
I will work to elevate you, just enough to bring you
down.Mother mary, wont you whisper.Something but the past is done.
Why cant we not be sober?I just want to start this over.Why cant we sleep forever?I just want to start this over.I am just a worthless liar.I am just an imbecile.I will only complicate you.trust in me and fall as well.I will find a center in you.I will chew it up and leave.Trust me.trust me.trust me.trust me.trust me.Why cant we not be sober.I just want to start things over.Why cant we sleep forever.I just want to start this over.I want what I want...I want what I want...I want what I want...I want what I want...
So my mind is all over the place today... fights on the home front have left me just a mess today. Not knowing which way is up or down anymore. I actually started this blog on Friday and I am just getting a chance to sit and write. The home front battles have turned into a full on war and I am feeling very defeated. I know this whole blog thing is suppose to be where I tell all about whats going on and maybe someday I will feel confident enough to share everything but I am so turned around right now I will leave it be. Although Vicki's "Leave the Pieces" last night may have been more ironic than I realized.
Traveled to the state fair last night! It was a fun trip... the ride started off with me being a bit shakened up but the day wasnt about me, it was about my best friend and I knew that so I pulled myself together long enough to get her through this expierence. I knew that I need to have my full game on to get her onto that stage, and I am so proud that she did what she did, a year ago that lil shy girl would have been throwing up in the bathroom or perhaps never performed at the county fair to start!
Although she didnt place, everyone was so proud of her and so supportive and now we get to go to Menace on Saturday! lol.
After the show we wondered around with Vicki's cousin John and his buddy, we got some beer, ate a ero (not on a stick) and rode on this skyline thing that took you from one side of the park to another... it was super cool. AND WE GOT TO SEE JOHNNY LANG ON STAGE but only from the damn ride... yup... those are Johnny Lang's lights!